Today, I am preparing for surgery to have a tumor removed from my right kidney. I have been blessed that it was found early, and I have a top-notch surgeon. I am doubly blessed that many friends and members of Christ’s body have been praying for me. I believe in the power of prayer.
Here are a few thoughts that percolate in my mind as I prepare for my 12:30 pm surgery:
I am thankful that I have a wonderful wife who supports me and looks out for me;
I am feeling like somewhat of a burden to family today;
I am worried about being out of control: As often as I have tried to turn over control of my life to God, I have a really hard time being out of control; I don’t fear death, but I do fear the idea of having no control while I’m laying in the hospital;
I feel weak today;
I hate anesthesia and worry about it;
I am contemplating hearing voices while I am under anesthesia this day: Will it open me to new voices? For some reason this has been on my mind for the past month:
Can I be a good patient?
How soon can I return to work?
Can I turn over control and discernment and return to daily life when it is best to do it?
My blog will present mostly reruns this next week, and a few poems that I have written in April. I seek your prayers. I do believe in prayer. –Tom